Home Movies: How Much Time Do You Spend Behind The Camera
Growing up we had a VHS video camera. It was HUGE! and so heavy. But it was awesome. We have video for days capturing so much of our life growing up. My father would sit filming us like a wildlife documentary capturing little random moments that also give us big insight into what we were like before we can remember.
When I was about 10 he said I was old enough to use the camera myself. I think it was more like I was big enough to actually lift this massive device. As a child I loved it. I would film everything and everyone. I would conduct interviews, direct plays with my sisters, make music videos. Only problem is I'm barely in any of our home movies because I was always behind the camera. All the fun random moments happening, I was just an observer of them.
When Leo was born I told Marcelo that I wanted him to take the majority of the home movies. I didn't want to repeat what happened before. I wanted to be in the pictures and apart of the moments of his life.
Marcelo doesn't have patience for taking long home movies. After about 15 minutes he gets bored decides we have enough and puts the camera away. At which point I get anxious and take it back out to film another hour.
For me video of Christmas Eve should be 5 hours long capture each person arriving at the house, every present being opened and all events until the last person goes to bed.
Its excessive, but it's my instinct and its such a hard one to break. Especially when it's your own child. Every moment is so precious and so fleeting. You just want to capture every smile so you can hold onto it for life.
Marcelo and I got into an argument about his abbreviated family movie taking time frame a few weeks ago. When I told him why it was so important to me his response was, "even if we don't have it on film we'll always remember it here" and pointed to his heart. How can you argue with that.
I'm getting better at putting the camera down. On Father's Day I only took 50 photos and 30 minutes of video. Trust me that's a BIG improvement.
I'm learning that Marcelo was right. The smile that you hold in your heart, you remember more than the one you hold in your hand.